Halber Mädchen

The Chaos that is my existence.

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 01:25:47 GMT

So I havent updated in forever and you have probably all dropped me from your friends list by now... but well I didnt update because I totally didnt want to talk about any of this... anyway here are the reasons why i disappeared off the face of the planet for a while:

When I got back from Taiwan, I found a job teaching ESL. I was teaching the exact same book I taught in Taiwan for a third of the pay and triple the living expenses... but the school was alright and the students were swell and well it was all I could find so I kept it.

After a couple of months teaching there, my sister got diagnosed with Breast Cancer. They found a 9cm tumor in one breast and a separate occurance of cancer in the other breast as well. This was a couple of weeks after my sister turned 30.

Since then I quit my job so that I could take care of the kids while my sister goes through chemo. Elliott is almost 3 now and Polly is just 9 months. So thats been my life... just call me Nanny Mcphee or maybe even Mary Poppins (though you all know I cant carry a tune very well).

Anyway my health went down the tube as well and I ended up moving between bed rest, emergency, and quaranteen in my room. It started off with a flu that they were conviced was strep throat (until the test came back negative) and then I developed a mouth virus (which made my tongue swell to 3 times its normal size) and an infection in my glands (which caused numerous painful absceses under my arms). During this time of sickness and massive pain killer intake I was dumped by the lady I was seeing... and well cried alot but mostly felt massive amounts of guilt since I couldnt go anywhere near my sister or the kids thus making life difficult for them for two full weeks.

Im better now and finished off my antibiotics and even spent the last 13 hours chasing after my neice (who is crawling up a storm and just getting into everything) while my sister got another shot of chemo.

To those of you I have not been in contact with during this whole time... I am so sorry and my only excuse is that life has become very difficult. I am worried, I am a stress case but I am also just painfully lonely. Still I have been reluctant to reach out because I just didnt want to have to repeat "my sister has cancer" over and over again on the telephone. I hope you can understand and forgive me for that.

Please know that I did not mean to go AWOL for quite so long and that I miss all of you. Those of you in Toronto please call me sometime and those of you further away I would love to get emails about where life has taken you lately.

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 03:52:11 GMT

So I created a journal in which I will post about my misadventures in Taiwan!

It will be located here: http://www.livejournal.com/users/taiwanadventure/

So anyone who wants to read about the trip as it unfolds can refer to there... I will probably still post here when the opportunity provides itself but best to keep travel rants to myself and those who enter that realm willingly.

Desperation has definately set in.

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 01:08:07 GMT

So I think I have spoken to everyone I know in the last 12 hours and not a single person can find place in their hearts and homes for Sailor.

So this is the deal: I have my tickets in my hand and I leave on Sunday. If I can't find some place for Sailor by Sunday then I need to take him to the Humane Society Saturday afternoon. Just the thought of this breaks my heart.

So here is what I can offer:

- As already said I will pay all of Sailor's expenses for the year.

- I will bring Sailor to whomever can take him with a full supply of food, litter and so on.

- I will give them emergency money in case of anything.

- AND despite my current comlete and utter lack of funds, I will pay them $200 and get them some extremely cool stuff from Taiwan.

So here it is. I am begging. I am begging that you ask your friends, your friend's friends and your families to help me not have to give up my best friend of the last 4 years.

You all know how to reach me.

Mon, 31 May 2004 22:36:58 GMT

Didn't get the job.

Looking for a kitty-sitter!

Sun, 09 May 2004 17:29:01 GMT

Does anyone know anyone who can cat sit for three weeks starting June 12th?

Im getting kicked out of my grandmothers for three weeks when my aunt comes and because I will be staying with my parents I need to find alternative arrangements for Sailor.

If there is anyone out there who can help me out please please contact me asap!

Mon, 03 May 2004 12:57:34 GMT

To Vince and T-Al with love:

Tue, 20 Apr 2004 21:12:04 GMT

All should watch Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone on mute with the download available at http://www.illegal-art.org/video/wizard.html playing in the background.

Truly hilarious, and perfect for procrastination.

Wo ist mein schloss?

Fri, 13 Feb 2004 01:45:18 GMT

Der Fisch springt aus dem wasser!

Der hund springt aus dem beir!

Das ist verruckt!

Und...

Lucas springt aus sein Schloss!

Fri, 12 Dec 2003 20:43:45 GMT

I had hoped to go meet my nephew today but instead I woke up with a fever 40 degrees celcius and feel like ass.

I wont be able to meet him till next week :(

But I did get pictures by mail and he is so cute and so perfect!

Wed, 10 Dec 2003 11:29:18 GMT

My nephew was born just before 6am this morning by c-section. He is 7 pounds and 10 ounces.

Tue, 09 Dec 2003 22:39:29 GMT

Im going to be an Aunt! My sister just got her first contraction!

A compliment I truly dont deserve

Mon, 08 Dec 2003 00:55:47 GMT

This is odd, based on my answers I thought for sure I would be Fulci.

You are John Waters!

Significant Films: Pink Flamingos, Desperate
Living, Polyester.

The self appointed master of "good" bad
taste. Every taboo in the book has been broken
by this guy. Willfully shows us every
disgusting image imaginable, and somehow makes
it funny too. Hes a bit toned down in his old
age, but still can make a decent comedy when he
tries.

Which Fucked Up Director Are You?
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Fri, 07 Nov 2003 12:09:31 GMT

Alright folks I am broke. Broker than broke.
This is no good.
So here's the deal my cds and dvds (and gasp even my books... but my books are a last case scenario) are open for the bidding.
Just make me an offer for anything you are interested in.

Thu, 23 Oct 2003 21:58:02 GMT

Well once again Im going into Toronto tomorrow on another very last minute trip... I have a doctor's appointment at 2pm and will spend the night... probably heading back to Kingston on Saturday.

Fri, 17 Oct 2003 01:07:08 GMT

Ignore last message... I just found the notes for "How Much is that Doggie in the Window" and I will not rest until I can play it

Fri, 17 Oct 2003 01:01:41 GMT

Im am learning how to play my new harmonica! Right now Im learning how to play "That's Amore"! Soon I will move on to "Aint Misbehaving" and "Hello Dolly"!

Once again this reminds me how much I love dollar stores (with their cheap harmonicas) and the internet (with its online harmonica lessons)!

Sometimes it is good to be up this early

Tue, 14 Oct 2003 09:45:41 GMT

Early morning tv is funny.

I just saw an commercial for a real life Don "No Soul" Simmons!

Yay he does exist, only he goes by another name and sings gospel music!

Is this the non-threatening music I have been searching the world over for?

Thu, 02 Oct 2003 09:55:07 GMT

Ive slept very little despite how tired I am, today should be interesting.

Fri, 12 Sep 2003 19:06:34 GMT

RIP Mr. Johnny Cash.

Sat, 06 Sep 2003 15:34:04 GMT

I just got my first belt in my martial arts class! Yay!

Im hoping in about 2 weeks I can go for the next one.

Tue, 02 Sep 2003 11:03:40 GMT

Dont you hate it when you begrudgingly set your alarm for 6:30am, get up at said early time and get ready and then sitting around at 7:00am all ready to go, you realize that you read the schedule wrong and dont actually have to be anywhere until 9am?

Mon, 01 Sep 2003 16:11:45 GMT

It's like the Oil Thigh is playing on repeat outside my window!

I fucking hate Frosh week!

Oh fuck and it looks like there is going to be a football game too... so Im gonna go flee my apartment now.

Ive got a lovely recipe for black and red.

Fri, 29 Aug 2003 18:57:58 GMT

In the category of it was bound to happen... today I walked straight into my bike rack... head first.

I now have a goose egg forming on my forehead and red scratches on my eyelid.

Fri, 29 Aug 2003 14:44:19 GMT

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Now I wonder do they mean Marilyn Monroe a la The Seven Year Itch or Marilyn Monroe a la the autopsy photos that killed Jon's Marilyn crush?

Fri, 29 Aug 2003 14:39:40 GMT

Just a question:

Why is it that everytime Im getting ready to leave Kingston for Toronto I wake up to loud ominous thunder?

I was just on the phone with Sticky and we decided to weave or macrame a welcome mat for my apartment that says either:

"Welcome to my quagmire of despair and despondency"

OR

"If ever so humble, there's no place like my quagmire of despair and despondency"

Which do you prefer?